Why I haven't been here....

[Blaze]

Well aside from my lack of will to RP but I realized something.

I'm not friends with you guys anymore......... It's weird, but I don't feel connected to anyone here anymore. I talk to Reiji for about half a second every week, I attempt convo with Couric and Nai which normally ends in fail. Hell most of the time even when I talk to Caj it's a majority of silence with me breaking it trying to get a conversation started that normally ends a moment after it begins.

I don't know why this is, nor is it really the way I want it to be. However it's the underlying reason I haven't been here. Back in the days I really didn't like to RP as much as battle, but the best part about these sites was that it was a large congregation of all my online friends. Sadly it's like these people don't exist anymore.

Friend after friend have gone by the wayside, either because we have nothing to say to each other or because we don't feel like making time to talk or putting effort forth towards an actual convo. I just feel so disconnected from all of you. I used to think of the people on here as friends of mine and right now it's hard to think of it that way.

Occasionally I wonder what people are up to, message them, see what's up, but it never goes far. I realize this isn't all on the people I speak of but partially on myself. I'm not exactly the most social person, nor am I probably that great to talk to... still I miss the days where my insomnia seemed quelled by talks with my e-friends on subjects ranging from religion to quantum mechanics to girls to people we knew IRL to family, damn near everything.

Just lately I've been feeling really isolated for some reason. My friends in my life have been disappearing at an even faster rate than that of my online friends. Even when I hang out with people, sometimes I have I good time but for the most part I feel bored. I guess there was always something comforting about having a fairly large list of people I could contact at almost hour to talk about damn near anything.

Here I am, awake for a few days, bored out of my mind and unable to sleep. Yet I can't help but reminisce about the older days, when even if the systems of the RP didn't make all that much sense(some were downright ludicrous) I still had tons of fun mostly because of the people that were there.

So to anyone that read through all that this is me extending my hand of friendship once more. I'm not on all that much, and I haven't RPed here in quite sometime but still.... I miss that connection I felt I had. Be it imaginary or not, I always felt close to this weird group of people who enjoyed some of the garbage that I enjoy. I wish to regain that feeling of having atleast a few people that I can talk to about all sorts of garbage.

Meh don't even know why I typed this up to tell the truth. I'm all fucked up and feeling stupid ass shit that I might not feel but I do miss you fuckers. Hit me up niggers

[Kate]

I have no idea who you are but ill be your friend

[Konn]

Sorry that was on the wrong account a dur

[Katatonia]

Hey you know I suck at conversational topics, even back when we were like... ultra close... it's not my fault I've never got much to say. ;_;
I'm happy to see you when you finally appear, it sucks when you're gone so much.
It sucks monkey balls.

Anyways, I still miss ya. But yeah, it's different from how it was in the past... there's just not that same awesomeness of everyone being together anymore... in fact I'm pissed off that most people are missing.
Where the fuck is Hawk, for example?!
I lost his MSN when I switched over to my new one... so I'm screwed for trying to find him, too. =/

Also, Xero DJBlue... he needs to get his ass back in to the RPing world. He was cool.
Giotto and company were a bunch of shitfaces, but were lulz to have around, kept things a little more interesting IC, and helped keep the staff on their toes.
Junior's not always been the best RPer, but he's been with us a while, and he's gotten pretty good... yet I haven't seen a timeskip by him... he's disappeared.
Orzasm and Gohitz were idiots, but I miss them, too.
Freiz needs to quit hanging out on other sites and spam around here, like the good old days.
Mox and Seifer are the original duo from way back before even I showed up... and Seifer's gone... too lazy to check up on people and do what he used to do... not only that, but they had a fall out apparently.
Haku Sano... MIA since forever.
Vayne and Zhyne... we've got Zhyne, but no Vayne?! He's been sitting around waiting for SR, but it shouldn't really be like that... we're here... we're here... he could show up just to spend time with his old RPing buddies. Why Vayne, why?
Mewzard! He's been accused of poor RPing from time to time, but he was cool to have around, just like everyone else.
Raizin, too... how could I forget when my character on FD got fucked by his? XD
He's a great RPer to have around, too. Funny and creative.

I MISS SO MANY PEOPLE!

We still have some people, though... but we've all changed so much.
I for one, am awfully different from how I used to be. I'm now a bitch with undertones of emo... instead of just a bitch with undertones of psycho. Gozu thinks too much, when he's supposed to have always been the simple player with a simple character... Couric's just not the same any more without his lame weeabooish craziness... Reiji got up and quit months ago... Nai's way too damn busy...

This is why I wanna try again... this site didn't work out quite well enough as I wanted. This is still too complex here (techniques for one thing are too complex for DBZ, and Nai's power guide is too much, making the 10k idea pretty bad after all). Anyways, this way... we can all get together... just get together... and go crazy and have fun. With a new start to get it right...

I just keep feeling like we've got it wrong as hell right now.
It's okay, though... this is the first time I've tried to bring us together in years, so mistakes are understandable... but to me that just means I need to get up, take my renewed experience, and try it again.

[I am Iron Man]

I've found it's kinda the same here, Blaze; I IM or get IM'd by people but it goes nowhere.
Goddamn.
I'd love it if we could all friend up and shit again and things can be like they were, though I suppose things won't really be the same now either way :/ .

[Katatonia]

Making this into an announcement because it seems so important.

[splicer]

Haha I know how you feel, It's like not speaking to some one for like for years, then suddenly acting like your best friends again, like seriouslly who the hell would have thought when we first started we've be here.

TBQH this site is being held together by the few people that remain from back in the day Julia,couric,gozu zhyne,mox,me,shiro,nai, and if just one more of use leave this site might as well be dead.


For of this to happen we need everyone back......it's not fun when most of the rpg is staff lol